From the first time they met, it was clear Cassian and Nesta were bent on seeing who could annoy the other the most. As their relationship evolved, this changed a little and this rivalry began to inhabit other areas of their dynamics.
This art is inspired by a comment Nesta makes in Chapter 51 of ACOSF (about new ways they found to be competitive 🔥🔥🔥), after Nesta and Cassian return from the mountains.
“He got close enough to kill you. If it had been another enemy, they might have.” The bed rumbled as he took a shuddering sigh and lowered his hand from his eyes. The raw emotion there made her bite her lip. Never- never did he let her see those things. “I failed you. I swore to protect you, and I failed tonight.”
“It’s not fine.” His hand was warm as it clamped her shoulder. She let him turn her onto her back and found him half on top of her as he peered into her face.Â
His body was massive, solid force of nature above hers, but his eyes-the panic lingered. “I broke your trust.”
“You did no such thing. Rowan, you told him you wouldn’t hand over the key.”
He sucked in a breath, his broad chest expanding. “I would have. Gods, Aelin- he had me, and he didn’t even know it. He could have waited another minute and I would have told him, ring or no ring. Erawan, witches, the king, Maeve…I would face all of them. But losing you…” He bowed his head, his breath warming her mouth as he closed his eyes. “I failed you tonight,” he murmured, his voice hoarse. “I’m sorry.”
Yet there he was, his hand a brand on her bare shoulder, his body nearly covering hers. “You have nothing to be sorry for,” she whispered. “I trust you, Rowan.”
“I missed you,” he said quietly, his gaze darting between her mouth and eyes. “When I was in Wendlyn. I lied when I said I didn’t. From the moment you left, I missed you so much I went out of my mind. I was glad for the excuse to track Lorcan here, just to see you again. And tonight, when he had that knife at your throat…” The warmth of his callused fingers bloomed through her as he traced a path over the cut on her neck. “I kept thinking about how you might never know that I missed you with only an ocean between us.”
“But if it was death separating us…I would find you. I don’t care how many rules it would break. Even if I had to get all three keys myself and open a gate, I would find you again. Always.”
She blinked back the burning in her eyes as he reached between their bodies and took her hand, guiding it up to lay against his tattooed cheek.”
It was an effort to remember how to breathe, to focus on anything but that smooth, warm skin. he didn’t tear his eyes away from hers as she grazed her thumb along his sharp cheekbone. Savoring each stroke she caressed his face, that tattoo, never breaking his stare, even as it stripped her naked.
She kept her stare locked on his as she let go of his face and slowly, making sure he understood every step of the way, tilted her head back until her throat was arched and bared before him.
“Aelin,” he breathed. Not in reprimand or warning, but…a plea. It sounded like a plea. He lowered his head to her exposed neck and hovered a hair’s breadth away.
She arched her neck further, a silent invitation.
Rowan let out a soft groan, and grazed his teeth against her skin.
One bite, one movement, was all it would take for him to rip out her throat.
His elongated canines slid along her flesh—gently, precisely. She clenched the sheets to keep from running her fingers down his bare back and drawing him closer.Â
He braced one hand beside her head, his fingers twining in her hair.Â
“No one else,” she whispered. “I would never allow anyone else at my throat.” Showing him was the only way he’d understand that trust, in a manner that only the predatory, Fae side of him would comprehend. “No one else,” she said again.
He let out another low groan, answer and confirmation and request, and the rumble echoed inside her. Carefully, he closed his teeth over the spot where her lifeblood thrummed and pounded, his breath hot on her skin.Â
She shut her eyes, every sense narrowing on that sensation, on the teeth and mouth at her throat, on the powerful body trembling with restraint above hers. His tongue flicked against her skin.
She made a small noise that might have been a moan, or a word, or his name. He shuddered and pulled back, the cool air kissing her neck. Wildness—pure wildness sparked in those eyes.
“Not yet,” he said roughly, his own breathing uneven. “Not now.”
“Why?” It was an effort to remember speech with him looking at her like that. Like he might eat her alive. Heat pounded through her core.
“I want to take my time with you—to learn…every inch of you. And this apartment has very, very thin walls. I don’t want to have an audience,” he added as he leaned down again, brushing his mouth over the cut at the base of her throat,
Oh, by the Wyrd. She was in trouble. So much rutting trouble. And when he said her name like that…
“This changes things,” she said, hardly able to get the words out.
“Things have been changing for a while already. We’ll deal with it.” She wondered how long his resolve to wait would last if she lifted her face to claim his mouth with her own, if she ran her fingers down the groove of his spine. If she touched him lower than that. But—
Wyverns. Witches. Army. Erawan.
She loosed a heavy breath. “Sleep,” she mumbled. “We should sleep.”
He swallowed again, slowly peeling himself away from her and strode to the closet to dress. Honestly, it was an effort not to leap after him and rip that damn towel away.
Be aware of how fireworks and loud noises in general effect your loved ones, especially those with PTSD and/or anxiety issues. The 4th of July can be a very difficult time for those of us who are especially vigilant, easy to overload, or have triggers involving loud noises. Be kind.
